Forward
Preface: The Unthinkable
Chapter 1 Becoming a Mother
Chapter 2 Family of Four
Chapter 3 Losing Myself
Chapter 4 Figuring it Out
Chapter 5 Starting Over
Chapter 6 Dancing for Happiness
Chapter 7 Crossfaded
Chapter 8 Hope and Disappointment
Chapter 9 Searching for Cody
Chapter 10 A Mother's Hope
Chapter 11 Grandma Penny
Chapter 12 Letting Go
Chapter 13 The Longest Flight
Chapter 14 Grief - What I Did Not Know
Afterward: Writing
Acknowledgments
Reflections
Resources