Adderall and Other False Prophets

He healed minds for a living-until he lost control of his own. Asher Lockwood was a respected psychiatric nurse practitioner and CEO, trained at Yale and admired by patients and colleagues alike. Behind the white coat, however, he was falling apart. Fueled by Adderall, struggling with bipolar disorder, and trapped in a toxic, codependent marriage, his life spiraled out of control. Boardrooms gave way to courtrooms, clinics to psych wards, and eventually jail cells. Adderall and Other False Prophets is the shocking true story of a clinician who rose to the top of his profession only to be undone by addiction, betrayal, and the crushing weight of his own demons. For six years, Lockwood lived in the wreckage of his choices-humiliated, isolated, and cut off from his sons. Yet even as everything collapsed, he discovered the resilience to survive. Told with brutal honesty, dark humor, and startling clarity, this memoir strips away the stigma of mental illness and addiction among healthcare professionals. It captures the chaos of self-destruction, the suffocating grip of toxic relationships, and the devastating impact of family court battles. But it also shines a light on redemption, showing that even after ruin, recovery is possible. On August 23, 2022-his older son's birthday-Lockwood put down Adderall and cocaine for good. That decision marked not only the beginning of sobriety but also the rebirth of a father, partner, and man determined to live with integrity and purpose. Today, he tells his story as a cautionary tale for those in medicine and as proof to anyone battling addiction that survival is possible. For readers of Dry by Augusten Burroughs, Lit by Mary Karr, and Educated by Tara Westover, Adderall and Other False Prophets is a raw, unflinching memoir of destruction and rebirth. It's more than one man's story-it's a testament to the strength of the human spirit, and a reminder that even from ashes, life can rise again.