Book of Alan

Born on a now closed military bombardier, the fighter pilot training installation within the state of Texas. Sixth son to a military father and a stay at home mother at the time, with four of my brothers from the same father of the seven brothers from the same mother. A Christian loving mother that gave the best caring love spread amongst all of us boys. A military and culturally disciplinary father that all of us boys were afraid to disappoint. Plenty of times I've felt the stinging side of a belt or switch from my father, but not as much as my brothers did individually, with some feeling the strength of his hand or fist. A few more other military installations lived on throughout my young years in the states. Experienced the parents' divorce during the teen years and their back and forth squabbling over each other throughout my youth, while my brothers reacted in different ways. Mainly becoming jealous of my father's attention towards complimenting me and condemning their actions. I actually hated the attention my father gave to myself and eventually became defiant towards my father. While struggling with the inward connection to the light of inspiration that seemed to follow me throughout my life. I never knew if my mother could actually see or recognized that I had that inward light, but she always seemed to try and help guide me in the right direction, even though she appeared to be lost in things for herself. I definitely struggled through my teen years, as all adolescents do, finding myself with the hormones kicking in and figuring the rest of the world out. What helped to comfort me was my choice to think of the world and suddenly seeing the world trying to figure itself out too. I saw human continually trying to search for the truth in everything, so I started and steadily continued to search along with humanity, but mainly for myself. Joining the military as my father did to help learn and experience the world from his aspect to understand him and why he acted the way he did with my brothers and myself. I continued in the military, got married, and had two beautiful daughters before I retired from the military. The military sent me around the world from the United States to the southern portions and Istanbul, Turkey, parts of the Portugal islands of the Azores, Coastal areas of Greece, back to the United States, to fight a tyrant from Saudi Arabia and into Kuwait, over to the Korean peninsula in South Korea, and back over to Europe within Germany, with stops and vacation into other countries along the way. Plenty of adventures during my tenure as a serviceman in the military, along with sights of war close up during Desert Storm. My marriage suffered during the military years with my reactions to situations, open and hidden between us, but it wasn't until after I retired that I was able to see the true nature of my ex-wife. I finally chose to step aside and live my true life, but not until after I tried to give her a clear picture of her behaviors and what was driving her thinking and actions. This took me all the way into her sick world with her father. It helped me to learn the ways people manipulate each other. Now, I live my life free of outward influence to do as I wish, although I hook up at times with some other manipulative types of women. I try to help them to think clearer, but soon give up with no success. I've seen my life has been quite interesting and eventful. I wish to share those lessons learned and hopefully start someone else on a clear path to a happily emotionally, and thoughtfully rich life. At this stage in my life I find myself again trying to teach others about themselves without making enemies in the process. I now work for a government agency that started out not long before I joined it. It's full of individuals that are just as they think, individuals, and not part of a team working together for the commend good of people. They would rather think about themselves than doing what it takes ensure the safety of others. I think of my grandfather dying young in his 50's and my father dying young in his 50's and realize that before I do the same, I going to teach others what God taught me and what I've learn to live joyous life and hopefully help them to live one of those lives too. Alan Gregory